Binge


I was not really hungry, but I had to do it anyways
This intense sensation that I needed to get my fix took over
I walked into the kitchen and started washing dishes
I looked behind me and could not wait
I slipped the gloves off of my hands
I poured myself a glass of water
I opened the drawer and headed to the couch
I tore into the bag and felt happy
I felt calm, I felt relaxed
Then I felt guilty
Then I felt dirty
Maybe dirty is not the right word
But I don't know what to call it
I just know as soon as it started it was over
And I did not like that I did it