I May Not Have Done it Right this Time?

This must have been bothering me for some time as I had a draft of an earlier post from March. Here I was all puppies, kitties, and those damn floaty hearts when actually I was fighting an internal battle. I constantly over analyze (one word apparently, shut up) things; therefore relationships are not out of said analysis. I always wonder am I good enough, doing enough, pretty enough, sexy enough, engaging enough, smart enough..you get the picture. Obviously, I know deep down that I'm the shit (plain and simple); with flaws of course, but teeny tiny ones. I think I spend so much time in thought that I don't just let things happen and/or naturally run their course. I'm a tough broad, yet I get in a relationship, this one in particular, and I turn into a church mouse. WTF how does that happen? Perhaps it's because I don't want to boil the ocean, or cause a scene, or just mess things up. And we all know that keeping things to oneself is not a good idea based on the classic saying, "A woman does not burp or fart, therefore she must bitch or she will blow up." Ok, possibly not the best analogy, but you know what I'm getting at. I am happy to report that after a long overdue conversation things are back on track. I have a peace about things again and the communication is at it's best. I know it won't be at this pace forever, but it's good to know that a simple chat can reconnect us.